Here is my food story and this will be a very vulnerable sharing from my heart and the truth about how living against my values and against my Dharma brought me into a totally crazy digestive story. 

 

Where to start and why oats with cacao are my safety healing food? Yes, and thanks to hypnosis and energy healing I am not addicted to them anymore ;) 

 

When I was in my 20's I had no clue about good nutrition - I drank red bull, ate ice cream every day. True, I worked for Unilever and we had ice cream for free. Ice cream for free, wow, a dream come true, not for my physical and intestines though. I did not listen to my body and heart at this time in my life. I had no idea.

 

I grew up in a very unconscious family, a family where emotions were never expressed. Let's say my food trauma actually started early in my childhood as I was eating my emotions very early. When my mum got into her negative vibes, the little Ti just did not want to eat. I stopped eating for awhile before I changed that pattern into eating emotions. What happened? I went over to my grandma's place and she gave me oats with cacao. Still when I feel sad or sick or just don’t want to face emotions, I just want this lovefood - grandma's true love, my true love. Nowadays I do this with a high awareness and after dancing, shaking, surfing or communicating my emotions. It took me years to figure out other food and childhood, boyfriend food related patterns. Wow, huge topic for me.

 

When I moved out of my parents place and had my own space, I became more aware of healthy food habits, thanks to friends and my athletic live as a sport lover.

 

I realized when I came home, I would always start to eat all the sweets in my parents place, I ate because I did not communicate my truth in front of them. I ate instead of speaking up, instead of being in my happy cloud. So easy to run to the fridge, isn’t it? Wouldn’t it be easier to sit, shake, and acknowledge what is going on inside? Today I say, yesssss to feeling it all the way through, I choose self awakening yoga to change my patterns, and I choose meditation to ground myself. 

 

This feeling of inner nervousness, the insulin that was getting up, losing the ground under my feet, hormones? What else? Puuuuhhh... truth is, I had times in my life were I had no idea what to eat, when to eat, how to eat.

​

As I started studying ayurveda, I started to learn to coach and live on a very holistic health lifestyle. We are checking in on all areas in our life. Some of them are:

 

1. Food

2. Psyche

3. Family, relationships

4. Mold, toxicity, heavy metals

5. Electro smog 

6. Hobbies

7. Identification 

8. Ancestors

9. Traumas

​

I went deep into micro details, studied all cleanses, fasting etc, checked everything and ended up diagnosed with a SIBO, losing weight, doubts of healing, standing up, diet after diet. Whaaaaat, me?! I never did diets. 

 

Of course you will always find something if you look for it. Isn't life about having fun and being joyful? The moment I stopped looking for something, the better I became, the moment I surrendered to life with love, my bloating got better, the moment my soul met my body again, I was able to eat normal again. Yes, and take it easy and feel healthy, believe into your healing journey. Food is your medicine and the first layer is our physical body. You can heal yourself, sweet sister.

 

Hypnosis, energy healing, childhood trauma sessions, a modern intuitive ayurvedic lifestyle, and last but not least plant medicine brought me into a deep healing process. Peyote, a magical journey where my soul met my body again and since then I can eat fruits again and trust, feel, love myself like never before. Why making life and healing so complicated if one night can change so much, I was wondering? It is and will be for me a holistic approach. But I must say, this night changed my whole life. 

 

Cleanse after cleanse, supplements... I figured out before and after the ceremony what really helped me is, surfing, fun, joy, yoga, and a very intuitive diet. The trust of my feminine cycle, eating like a woman, and listening to my needs.

 

My food story is, and was, quite a rollercoaster. I studied all into little details. Oh yesss and I am still on my healing journey, day by day. I am changing my mindset, the ease, the trust, the love I give myself. I believe into my self healing and into food as medicine.

 

Here some nice recipes, more of my own creation coming soon.